Blessed!

It is that time of the year again! Time for good food and punched drink and lots to be thank ful for. I am talking about the holiday season just when you thought I hide under a rock I am back and trying to make time to visit. So if you forgot about me and you want to know what ever happened to Ole Sunflower, I want to hear about it. Don't be shy.....and while you are here let me know when your favorite holiday is.

Mouth watering

Have you ever had a beinet?

OH, if you haven't they are so yum

The only place that I have had one was in the French Quarter, New Orleans. If you have ever visited New Orleans you will know it is a great place of different foods. Crawfish Etouffee is out of this world the BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also if you go to the French Quarter you HAVE TO TRY the Muffaletta. With all of the destruction caused in that region I don't recommend going now for dinner but I say that if you happen to be going passed there, that you stop for some GOOD EATS.

Grandma's House

Have you ever been stung by a bee?
I happened to remember my first time being ever stung by a bee. When I was struck by the bumble bee I was the age of 9 years visiting my grandma on her farm land in the deep country. I always loved going to Grandmas house because she had so many places to discover and I loved to be the explorer going in the chicken coop or poking around the barn in interesting places. The smell of the hay brings me into euphoria and I can’t forget the smell of the chickens. Being of the curious nature, I elude away from the house. So a bee stinging me that day I must have been up to no good or was about to be up to trouble. As I recall, I was very curious that day I remember sitting in my uncle’s truck with the windows down waiting for a ride when all of a sudden ÖUCH” that hurt, No it was more like OOOOOOOOOOUUUUUCCCCH!!!!! TTTHHAAATT HHUUUUUUURRRT!!!!!!..... If I would have known it what it felt like (the bees sting)…. I would think I had got stung by a bee before but I hadn’t. Boy, did I swell after that and not only was my brother there; he made sure the tail of this bee was not stuck in my arm. Being younger than me he some how knew what to do? By the way after that I was on the look out for incoming enemies of bumble bees because after it happens once you know the experience and try to avoid it next time. Gees I think I even shed a tear but I was only nine and that bee sting hurt. My writing was inspired by the book “Out of Control” by Kevin Kelly
His writings are inspired by the coming of age technology overriding the nature of creation.

My name is Sunflower

Hello to all who have missed me. I have been terribly busy, much has happened in the last few weeks. Not only have I started college and working but I have had to prepare for hurricanes. So if anyone missed me I would love to know. Just wanted to say that I am still ALIVE and WELL and ready to blog some more. I will in the next couple days post something REALLY COOL so look out for some new stuff.
Love Ya, Sunflower

My daily workout Yeah!

"If working out leaves you feeling hungry, beware. Those post-exercise munchies can add up! To prove it, researchers from the University of Ottawa divided study subjects into three groups — those who had just exercised intensely, those who had just exercised moderately, and those who didn't exercise at all. The researchers then asked the three groups to eat as much as they'd like from a lunch buffet.
They found that those who exercised ate more than those who didn't — roughly the same amount of calories they had just burned! They speculate that the body subconsciously "keeps track" of calories burned and tries to stay even, regardless of how much stored fuel — aka fat — the body already has on board!
That doesn't mean you should skip your workout or starve yourself after, though! The key is to be aware of this effect and to choose what you munch on wisely, the experts say. So reach for a low-fat/low-calorie carbohydrate and protein combo — like yogurt with fresh fruit or half a peanut butter sandwich on whole-wheat bread — after you exercise. Doing so will take the edge off your hunger without undoing all your hard work! " -Denise Austin
Since I was very young my mother was encouraged by her optimistic nature. After having two babies and being in her 40s Denise Austin is keeping the ball rolling. She not only does aerobics anymore but she incorporates dance, yoga, pilates, and tai chi in all her routines. Every Monday through Friday I watch Denise Austin from 7am to 8am on Lifetime Channel. I like to listen to her encouraging words of wisdom and helpful tips from eating to exercising the right way. I am walking proff that it works and want you to try it too. Exercising is one thing you can do for your body and your body will thank you for it. I truely can't understand why no one would not want to exercise but if you want to see a change, then try it.

HEY DANIELLE!!!!!!

Hi Danielle and Audrey!!!!!
From Rachel and Bella!!!!

This candle was lit on the 11th of September 2001. Please pass it on so it may continue to shine.

"A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle it gains greater brillance. "

9/11

As the soot and dirt and ash rained down,
We became one color.
As we carried each other down the stairs of the burning building,
We became one class.

As we lit candles of waiting and hope,
We became one generation.
As the firefighters and police officers fought their way into the inferno,
We became one gender.

As we fell to our knees in prayer, for strength,
We became one faith.
As we whispered or shouted words of encourgement,
We spoke one language.
As we gave blood in lines a mile long,
We became one body.

As we mourned together the great loss,
We became one family.
As we cried tears of grief and loss,
We became one soul.
As we retell with pride of the sacrifice of hereos,
We became one people.

We are:
^
()
One color / / One class
One generation One gender
One faith One language
One body One family
One soul One people
We are the POWER OF ONE. We are UNITED, We are AMERICA.
Dedicated to the victims of terroism and the loved ones that lost ones because of the terroism.

Telephones today?

Have you noticed these days people depend on the technology of computers to function. Kids of 2years old are introduced to cell phones before they can even begin to talk. I see many that would not be able to work with out a cell phone. I had a job where it was nessary to have two cell phones to keep up with my work. Numerious batteries and backup phone chargers were a necessity to get through the day smoothly. During a single day I would use up a battery charged and have to change batteries while charging the other one. Traveling with a big black book with all my numbers and addressses have been replaced with handhelds. All the companies give me email confirmation to my orders within days. Nothing is face to face like it was when I was younger, but impersonal by mail order or mass production sales. Smaller businesses today have bigger corporations with more resources putting them out of businness. Expanding corporations must extend international to make it BIG. If you don't change with the changing markets you will not survive with the thriving BLUR of tomarrow. Many instances if you have more to offer for the same product but for lesser price the consumer will have no choice but take the better offer. With companies like Walmart, Home Depot, Whole Foods Market look at polls for their products or region on polls of consumer demand. My idea today is a reflection on a world that is a everchanging place of new ideas and florishing plans of expansions. New companies walking into the horizon of the new dawn of the new world. Just opening my eyes to a forever of infinity of possibilites with a frontier of adventure.

Foolish Games by Jewel

Foolish Games
You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window,
always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one
with dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees
These foolish games are tearing me apart
You thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
You were always brilliant in the morning
Smoking your cigarettes, talking over coffee
You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you,
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar
You'd teach me of honest things
Things that were daring, things that were clean
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean
So I hid my soiled hands behind my back
Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself
These foolish games are tearing me apart
You thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
You took off your coat and stood in the rain
you were always like that

ANNABEL LEE

ANNABEL LEE
by Edgar Allan Poe (1849)
It was many and many a year ago, In a kingdom by the sea, That a maiden there lived whom you may know By the name of ANNABEL LEE;-- And this maiden she lived with no other thought Than to love and be loved by me.
She was a child and I was a child, In this kingdom by the sea, But we loved with a love that was more than love-- I and my Annabel Lee-- With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago, In this kingdom by the sea, A wind blew out of a cloud by night Chilling my Annabel Lee; So that her high-born kinsman came And bore her away from me, To shut her up in a sepulchre In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in Heaven, Went envying her and me:-- Yes! that was the reason (as all men know, In this kingdom by the sea) That the wind came out of a cloud, chilling And killing my Annabel Lee.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love Of those who were older than we-- Of many far wiser than we- And neither the angels in Heaven above, Nor the demons down under the sea, Can ever dissever my soul from the soul Of the beautiful Annabel Lee:--
For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams Of the beautiful Annabel Lee; And the stars never rise but I see the bright eyes Of the beautiful Annabel Lee; And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side Of my darling, my darling, my life and my bride, In her sepulchre there by the sea-- In her tomb by the side of the sea.
-- THE END --

Are you Eating to Live?

Or Are you living to eat? My ponders these questions of life as I am watching the depressing news and asking myself the question, am I eating to live or am I living to eat? What am I living for? Then I came upon a website of enlightenment.
What is the purpose of life?
What is my goal in life?
Why did I choose this career?
How do I spend my spare time?
What is my motivation for doing what I do?
What really makes me happy?
Am I as happy as I want to be?
Is it more important to be rich or to be happy?
What are my future plans? Why?
What are my secret dreams and ambitions?

Some more questions to evalute me/my life/my family......

Rainy Daze

Going to the French Quarter was always such a happy time for me. I remember going there on my 18th birthday with some friends of mine and my mother too. She had got her friend Tom to let us use his apartment in the French Quarter, located 2 blocks from Bourbon Street. It was a trip of remembrance because that was when I got my tongue pierced at Rings of Desire. My mom didn’t want me to do it but my friends chipped in on the money and I wanted to do it. I recall she was to upset with me she couldn’t even look at them piercing my tongue. She was curious and kept running in and out of the room to check on me. It took only a second but the prep is what took so long. Being my birthday is two days before St. Patrick’s Day I saw a parade while there and still have the beads I received back in 1998. As I recall we ate beignets, my favorite, and shopped along the farmers market. We also did a lot of window shopping at places like the place named Trashy Divas. That shop was the coolest because they had old 50s purses in mint condition as well as other clothes from that era. The shop keepers wore that 50s makeup and even had the hair styled as if they were living in that time. The French Quarter holds such memories that are fond to me.



All these memories flood me at this time of such tragic loss there. My heart is broken to look at the water flooding this beautiful city yet I am also sad for the people that lived there. I am praying for those folks not only in New Orleans but also the adjoining states in Mississippi and Alabama. My heart goes to the families who lost there loved ones and to the ones who lost a home to this gigantic storm.

Penguin Walk

What is all this fuss about that new movie with penguins taking a walk. I just don't get it?? My only conception of this movie is like that movie Babe, the talking pig. If you have watched this movie or know someone that has I wanna know what it is all about.

HUMILITY

Do nothing from factional motives[through contentiousness, strife, selfishness, or for unworthy ends] or prompted by conceit and empty arrogance. Instead, in the true spirit of humility (lowiness of mind) let each regard the others as betterthan and superior to himself[thinking more highly of one another than you do of yourselves]. Let each of you esteem and look upon and be concerned for not[merely] his own interests, but also each for the interests of others. Let this same attitude and purpose and [humble] mind be in you which was in Christ Jesus: [Let Him be your example in humilty]. (Philippians 2:3-5)

Along came polly

One of my favorite comedy movies is Along Came Polly. After I saw the movie back a few years ago I saved my money to buy a ferret and bought one for my 24th birthday. I named him Mr. Ferret because he was so very handsome for a ferret. At that time I was in a relationship living with my boyfriend in our house. I couldn’t be more excited about adopting this ferret and my boyfriend liked him too. For the first few days the little ferret would sleep all day long. I think he was just tired and needed rest from being away from the 5 or 6 ferrets he shared a cage with at the pet store. He was adorable so cute I was not looking at how he could be so mischievous. It was the beginning when he would wake me up early in the morning by scratching my feet with his claws. Smart little devil wanted to be fed. Ferrets don’t eat once a day but continually throughout the day. He also was potty trained to go on paper. One day Mr. Ferret escaped through a vent in the air- conditioning. Outside in the yard we had these large cap rocks in which we had planted these huge flowers around. I cried when I found out that he had runaway because Mr. Ferret was always curious about the front door and he was determined to escape some how. For three days we couldn’t find him yet the food I laid out for him at the front door was eaten. I made flyers and handed them out to the beachcombers passing by the house and the neighbors. We were losing hope when on the third day, he was found by a friend. My boyfriend saw him when he was found and I was ecstatic by the releiving good news.

Ferrets sleep most of the day, they sleep up to 20 hrs daily; when they are awake their habits include snooping and investigating. So, Mr. Ferret came home much to my delight with no major injuries yet a little dehydrated. Ferrets are one of the smartest pets you can have they are much smarter than a dog or cat. My ferret has no disgusting odor of any kinds but we washed him three times a week. Giving them a bath is a normality for having a ferret. Those first few baths were hell for him and me and left me with scars on my wrists. How I would pray that he may get comfortable with the process of water. So I would experiment with different techniques of washing Mr. Ferret. I tried just about everything from using a hairdryer to using the shower head and numerous other ways. Only just recently has he got used to taking a bath but I will not forget how it was at the beginning.

When we moved away to New York last year, we packed Mr. Ferret with us because he was family. We had a long car trip ahead of us just my boyfriend, me, and Mr. Ferret. It was incredibly fun because Mr. Ferret would sleep under our seats and once in while wake up to check on us. When we arrived in Long Island, Mr. Ferret took up residence in the basement. He seemed to like it there. It was very cool in there and we would visit him often. Sometimes we would sneak him upstairs to our rooms but would have to put him back in the basement in the morning. He was getting attached to us and while I was having trouble with my boyfriend I still wanted to keep my ferret. So when I left last year around Christmas I had to leave my precious ferret with my boyfriend. Thank god he loves Mr. Ferret and I trust him. He would tell me what my ferret would do and make me smile. Funny things like playing in the snow and things like sleeping in his sock drawer. I miss my birthday ferret and wish so much I could have kept him. Considering the facts though I couldn’t because my dog would have eaten him alive and I can’t have that. Plus my boyfriend favored him so much I had no choice. So this post is really about remembering my ferret. Having a ferret was such a joyful experience and I will look at his pictures with love.

Light Breaks

Praying for the troops on the other side of the world. We pray for you all a safe journey home. Orignal art by, Sunflower

Nite out!

If you are reading this mom this posts for you!
We are just close for words and i want to say how much you mean to me. I love you! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox, Sunflower

Almost August

It is that time again it is back to school. August is the greatest month here in Florida because kids are back in school and it’s not yet season here. The roads aren’t terribly bees’ z and the sun is not so scorching HOT. The anticipation of fall is in the air in August and there are many clothes sales this month. A+ ON the SALES!!! I am looking forward to college in September. I have so many things I need to take care of before I do go to college. Wish I could take a holiday and visit relatives in New Zealand but don’t think I will have a chance before school starts. Also work is pretty slow unlike when in season hectic. If I did want to take a quick trip to visit I wouldn’t want to leave, I know this for sure. Maybe I will go after fall or even next summer. I think I will lie out today it looks like a sunny one today! I have to choose between the pool or the beach, hmmm, this is tough. I may go to the beach it is gorgeous there. I have a new swimsuit and I want to show it off, YEAH! Plus my tan is fading from last time I went out. Looking forward to it this morning while I wake up and watch the traffic go to work. 9to5 those people are in a rush to get to work while I think of vacation, which was just a thought. Seriously I want to get my life together but I can’t in this month is such a vacation. If I wanted I guess I would get another side job to help me with my over spending budget. Help me! I thinking I should get help for my problem. Shop an alcoholic that is a terrible thing to have liked a disease. I want, I want, I need I have to have or I can’t live with out it! Never mind I am just enjoying sitting here listening to the radio and dreaming of it.

Hello, World

Sun Salutation, Corpse pose, Cobra or how about tree? Do any of these things words remind u of something? Yes, Well I will tell you. These are all terms used in yoga postures they are called. I practice daily with meditation as well as my postures. Taking deep breaths and thinking of relaxing thoughts are as simple as that, anyone can do it! I have been a practicing yogi for 8 years and can say it makes you a more relaxed human being. I recommend it to anyone.

Just waking up

Dreams are such a strange occurrence that I am bewildered by what I just seen in mine. It wasn’t a good dream or bad dream either but what it left me with feeling of repenting for all I have done wrong. I have
known people going through a midlife crisis and I am hoping this is not what I am feeling now. The dream exciting yet brutally disgusting had many characters I know are familiar faces. It was quite a long soap opera with many different plots and twists and then I was left alone watching on the sidelines of the dream. I felt a somewhat melancholy mood not really looking for a direction kind of like floating in limbo. Then suddenly I look over to the dream and notice a crowd of others I recognize, they seem to be gathering around a fight. My gut cringes every time I see a fight but cannot seem to look away from this one. I notice a man on top another man beating the death out of him. He picks up something and slams it in his head with blood gushing out of the body. I am horrified yet I am can not look away but yet I’m watching
it happen. This guy must have been very mad at this other man to beat him to a stalk. I am crying now, in my dream, thinking of this inexcusable behavior. Not to jump over to another story but I saw a fight once in middle school to where a guy stabbed another guy in the head with a pencil. That was very bad fight and the other guy had to go to the hospital to have it removed. The one guy who did the stabbing got expelled from school and never saw him after that. So anyway I was saying about me dream it was just so bloody disgusting I can’t put it in words. It was like watching a horror film the way this guy was ripping this other guy apart. Helpless body just remained on the sidewalk while the other guy claimed victory over some kind of pride issue. I couldn’t help feeling sorry for the guy well both of them even though it was only a dream I felt a deep desire to pray for forgiveness. It was like seeing what Hell is like on earth. A glimpse of what it would be like without God and Jesus. So I woke up this morning by the barking of Bella (my rottweiler) at the window seeing another dog. It is a wake up call for me to wake up with Jesus every morning because I believe he died for our sins and will soon come back to earth to save us from the devil. I will take a prayer from the bible that I treasure.
I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, Behold, the dwelling place of God is with men, and he will dwell with them, and they shall be his people, and God himself shall be with them, and be their God. And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away. And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful. –Revelation 21:3-5

Zip those Lips

Since I have this blog I can vent however I feel on whatever I want to. So I am going to get a few things off my chest. Firstly I want to talk about people who like pick at others flaws when they shouldn’t be. I have this manager at work who was talking to me the other day while I was waiting for a cocktail at the bar. He said “Look over my shoulder, you see that girl!” He was talking about this guest sitting at the table who had a slightly smaller head than her body. He made a remark towards that movie Beetle juice, “My Head it’s shrinking” I guess that’s when I should have laughed but I didn’t. That was not only the first time that has happened to me. There is this other person I work with who happened to have a thing with flossing and had to point out certain someone’s teeth she didn’t find appealing. She was like “Oh, your teeth are fine but so-and- so s teeth are gross”. It makes me think of what the people I work with are saying about me. Since I don’t talk to Chip anymore at work, also I was flirting with two gay guys that I didn’t know were gay(they are a couple), and I left early from work Wednesday because of cramps they have plenty to talk about me today. Talking about people that can not change the way they look or assuming they should look a certain way to meet your needs is absurd. What if that lady couldn’t afford to fix her teeth because she had raised three children by herself? Or what if that woman with her slightly smaller head didn’t know she looked funny. I would have liked to knock him on his ass after he said that but I could not. My mouth has got me in trouble too many times and especially if it is at work I have to watch my mouth constantly. If I said everything I wanted I wonder where it would get me probably broke, jobless, jail, etc…

Try this next time:
Speak only what’s truthful and useful.
Refrain from gossip.
Refrain from unnecessary interruptions.
Speak kindly and gently.
Speak humbly not arrogantly.
Pg.173
“Mindfulness and Money” by Kulananda and Dominic Houlder
Thanks for reading this and I appreciate anything you want to comment on. Remember to be authentic at work because if you can’t be than it is not worth keeping that job.

Sunflower to the Rescue!

Have you ever had someone say you look like someone else? Almost everyday I have at least one person say that I look like someone they know. The one celebrity that I closely resemble is Linda Carter aka Wonderwoman. So if you need to have a visual of what I look like, look at the photo. Actually they say everyone has a twin somewhere in the world I quess I have many look-a-like me. Have you seen your twin? If so what did you say to them?

Can anyone help me find my clothes?

I like it RAW!

Unless you choose to do great things with it, it makes no difference
how
much you are rewarded, or how much power you have. – Oprah Winfrey,
American Actress and Television Talk Show Host


Lately, I have been having a personal health check up on myself. I am really conscious of the things I put in my mouth, even if it is FDA approved. I don’t see why the majority of Americans are obese is it the entire Mac & cheese we consume or the sodas we drink? I am assured that the whole nation needs a makeover and I want to help with giving a little advice. Being a health nut all my life I see my friends and family abuse their bodies, instead of reaching for a fruit they go to a bag of chips instead. Statistics show that our ancestors had better teeth than we do in the present. It is all the sugar consuming or the meat overloads on the body. We as a nation (only US) have a higher rate of cancer than any other nation or nations combined. You would think this would motivate us to look at what we eat. I am right now reading a book that is transforming the way I look at life. It is called “Eating for Beauty” by David Wolfe, my dad recommended it for me, and it is a great book to have. It starts off by saying that all life in our fruit or vegetables is minerals ands nutrients we need to have a healthy beautiful body. He states that studies have shown that after you cook vegetables they lose most of the nutrients. Therefore if you want the vitamins, you need not cook them but eat them raw. David writes about having to detoxify to transform into a body beauty. Eating now isn’t just going into the cabinet and finding something you feel like eating anymore. He lies down a simple, balanced, and easy diet that is back to civilization kind of eating. He goes through all the reasons why eating raw is better and why humans aren’t suppose to eat meat. He has remedies for sicknesses like common colds and gives natural recipes for facials or what have you. I am not trying to change you into a vegan but want you to look at yourself next time you reach for that cheeseburger. Your mind can tell you one thing but your body is saying another. I personally take vitamins and work at eating right EVERYDAY. It’s real hard to quit these foods that we are think are good but it is good for your body.

Dear God,

Havin a good day today? I hope you are well. I am writing you for concern about my future. All my dreams and desires haven't all came true yet. I want so much more out of life so much more I want to see and accomplish. I would like the strength to do all these things and more. Give me the patience it requires to get through my work day without much fighting. I pray that my family is in good health and that they may live long lives. My heart goes out to all those families that have sons and daughters in the war, that they may have a safe trip home. I feel very hopeful that I am following the right path you want me too. Do tell Jesus we send hugs and kisses his way. Love always, Sunflower

Blood, Sweat and Tears

Today was a horrible day to be driving in traffic with no A/C. It was like 100 or so degrees out there and the wind factor felt like none. Zero miles per hour with no breeze to cool me off, it’s just awful. Luckily I was not going far but I chose the wrong route in which to get there. Just about a 30 minute ride in the hottest hour of the day WITH NO A/C (I can’t stress that enough).
My thoughts go out to all the homeless people, in Arizona, that have died this week without a way to cool off. The temperatures all over the country have been unbearable for some folks. In some areas where people do not even own air-conditioning units have been really been feeling the heat. It is horrific to think of not having an a/c at all, but if there was a chilly breeze year around I might not mind.
What we do if we didn’t have some of these things we so depend on for life? I can name plenty of things I could not live without. We always talk ourselves into things we want but not need or isn’t necessary. Then after we think it is a necessity, that what we think we want, is causing us to carry a responsibility for it. It is like when I get a new credit card I sign the dotted line saying I hold that burden of paying it off. If you are used to a certain luxury than you become accustom to, it is hard to downgrade to the cheaper version. Like take for example, if you have steak every night than something happens and you can’t afford it but you want it still. It is really hard for you to not be able to have a steak but you can sacrifice not having other things to have what you like the most (like steak). Things though get in the way like electric bills or rent and then you are back to square one. I once knew an alcoholic bum who used to work for us on the jobsite. He was a pleasant man very social able and worked really hard but at the end of the day he didn’t like the idea of paying rent. He would have rather slept on a bench than pay a nickel of his alcohol money on rent, just a thought in the mind of a bum.
I work hard for what I have and sometimes it isn’t easy but that‘s reality for what I want in my life. Has all the bills been paid this month? Does my spending go beyond what I make per month? What is it I want for the future? How can I achieve my goals?

Say Cheese !!

Everyone has a childhood dream job, right? Mine was to become a National Geographic photographer and take pictures in Africa or wherever the assignments took me. I would pretend to see myself in the pictures as if I were there, pretending I had to be quiet or an elephant would stump on me. Well, when you’re a kid everything is amplified as if you’re drunk. So what, even if it was a dangerous job I didn’t care it was a rush to imagine what it would be like. That was just one of my DREAM JOBS what was yours?

“Nothing is as real as a dream. The world can change around you, but your dream will not. Responsibilities need not erase it. Duties need not obscure it. Because the dream is within you, no one can take it away.” -Tom Clancy, American Novelist

IT'S MONDAY?

Can’t get enough…___________! I am so tired right now, I can’t sleep and then my dog alarm went off at 5:30am, then 6:00, at 7:00, and 8:00, and 8:15, and 8:30am when I finally couldn’t take it anymore. My purpose in life to me doesn’t involve waking up to a big snoutie rotteweiller, in my face, whining. I have been through so much with this dog and she has more issues than I have. The worse thing is that I can’t stand, is to be rudely awakened, at the wee hours of the morning by my dog. You know what I mean? You are dreaming of a hot guy in a car when all of a sudden you hear this “ewww, ewww”with at a high sounding frequency. Oh yeah, I am dreaming! F**K I am fr**king pissed off! Why me? Why must it be me? AAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cannot say enough how much this is so bloody unfair. I guess others have it worse, like having CHILDREN or having to wake up early anyway, but I just want to wake up on my own. I don’t get much sleep as it is. On top of this I am so mad it is Monday. MAD that’s right! I was cool last week but today I am grouchy, WATCH OUT! You don’t want to be around me in a bad mood. Forget about it. Anyway that’s it for now! I want to read all your posts this morning but I promise there will be more.

Godiva Is 4 Me

I am wishing I had one of these shakes RIGHT NOW!!!! It is the most delicious drinks on earth. Tell me about your cravings and what is your favorite. What does your sweet tooth tell you today what you want to eat or drink?

Valley Girl?

I am leaving you in suspense, but I am not meaning too. It is just like Chipper got my signals and has left me alone for now at least. Yeah! CHEERS I hear coming from the stadium. Smiling! Yes, I guess I have a bit of cheerleader in me. Team Spirit Perhaps!
I wasn’t much of a valley girl in high school like I am now. If you saw me in high school you’d say “Hey look at that grunge Chick over there!” I was not like some of those girls stuck each others asses. I had so many friends gone enemies from middle school to high school; I jus wasn’t the same person from middle school. If they were really my friends they would have understood that and accepted who I was. Instead they rolled there tongues at me and snarled at me in disgust. I never did shit, 2 these acquaintances that was what they had become. My choice was to not follow there shitty rules of what was NORMAL. I was far from NORMAL and I objected. Walking in the hallways of the HIGH SCHOOL so many cliques (groups of certain types of crowds). You had the snob patrol you know the cheerleaders and football players, then the black rappers w/ there girlfriends, also the pot heads or alternatives, the nerds or computer geeks, I think that is all em’ if I left any out just remind me in my comments. I was friends with them all so I was asocial butterfly. I had friends of all types always have never treated anyone different for being who they are. Now since I am realizing what looks good on my body and personality I wear what I feel comfortable in, not what I want to please others with. Jesus never was toward just one type of person or group he did not judge others. He treated them all the same. He is someone to look at for reference when you are confused and don’t know. What would Jesus DO?

Pray 4 Londoners

WTF! It is absurd to think that London is being attacked again by terrorist. It seems to be another attack this day in London but not sure the details yet. My prayers go out to the people there, I am praying for no more future attacks. Can’t there be steps to prevent this from happening again?
I pray that the terrorist have a change of heart, wanting peace not war.
“Hoping for the best and accepting the facts” Mr. Blair,
Please pull together and change the laws against terrorist!!!

;( BooHOO

I am totally pissed off at the world today. I was looking up tour dates to see Stereophonics in concert and to my disbelief there are no more US tour dates. Freakin disappointed. I can not believe if I want to see these guys in concert I will have to go to Europe. You don’t know how bad I want to see them play.
P.S. I might just have to take a trip to Europe!

Q & A

Got this questions to ponder on, off of Aish.com:
How long have you known him? How well do you know him?
Where did he grow up?
Is he dating for the purpose of marriage?
How does he like to have fun / spend vacations / do in his spare time?
What type of person is he looking for?
What does he look like?
What are his friends like?
Where is he heading in terms of spiritual growth and Jewish observance?
What is his outlook on life?
What does he want to do with his life - career, education, involvement in the community?
What kind of lifestyle would he like to have?
Does he smoke? Drink? How much?
Where did he receive his education?
Describe his personality.
What frustrates him and how does he handle frustration? How patient is he?
How does he react when a friend or family member has a problem?
Have you ever seen him deal with an emergency or crisis? How did he react?
What importance does he place on dressing fashionably? On grooming?
Did he face any challenges when he was growing up - illness, family problems, educational issues? And how did he deal with them?
Do you think he has the emotional stability to be a good marriage partner?
Do you have any reservations about recommending him as a potential marriage partner?
What is he looking for in a future spouse?
What qualities can he bring to a marriage?
Why do you think he would be a good match for me?
What is his family like?
How do the parents relate to each other? (You can ask this even if they are divorced.)
What kind of relationship does he have with his parents?
What are his siblings like?
What kind of relationship do his siblings have with their parents? With each other?
What kind of connection do his parents have with their community? Who is their rabbi? What synagogue do they attend?
What kind of education and careers do the parents have? What is their cultural background? Their worldview?

CHIPPER

Something I learned tonight is to not get overly excited over anything because it only ends in disappointments. I can think of a few conclusions that came to me tonight. One is I must end things I have no interest in anymore, that includes bad relationships. Chip has got to go; he is not anything I see as being attracted to. I have no reason to continue seeing him there is absolutely no connection anymore. I will break up with this boy who is way too young for me anyway and find someone that is more interesting. How will this plan work? Maybe something like “Sorry Chip but I can’t see you anymore because I am in love with someone else.” It sounds cheesy? Yes, that is way too lame. I wish I hadn’t been so nice at the beginning. I must be vicious like in INDIANA JONES when the bad guy takes his fist and pulls out a live beating heart. That is hard core suffering I feel the pain.
If that doesn’t work I will have to have plan B. What do you think I should do to him to give him the idea I am not interested.

Grouchy Daze

Grouchy in the dictionary is an adjective and means ill-tempered, suddenly discontented. Feeling grouchy this morning I just laid back down in bed for two hours. I am just realizing I have not worked out in like a couple weeks. I look at myself in the mirror, not bad…But I could look better. I have always been a person to be conscious what I am eating or what my butt looks like. Exercising is just my way of life something I just do. You could ask my mom, she will tell you. I am a size 4 and 5’11’ at 130 lbs. and I am very content with that. If I gain 5lbs. or see I am getting cellulite on the back of my legs, I will get flustered. Growing up I wasn’t the only person like this but I have never been anorexic or bulimic but some of my girlfriends were. I have always had high metabolism or something like that. It is a shame when you’re young and see all the models on magazine covers looking what the IDEA of beautiful is. I had this boyfriend who didn’t want me to eat because he wanted me to be skinny. I am skinny Idiot. I am as tiny as any of those models in the covers if I was thinner than I am I would look sick. So I am thinking I should at least get on the treadmill and do a little of aerobics. On occasion I do some yoga to relax me but I see more results with aerobics. I am also contemplating going to the beach for some sun and to see that hot lifeguard for a chat. Well I will see maybe tomorrow on my day off. Not much going on here today all is well now.
Update on Chip: Called him from work and received a phone call back from his friend from the concert. Yesterday he went saw the Dave Mathews Band on the second day in a limo. Right! His friend said Chip was sick in the bathroom from drinking a half a bottle of some sort of alcohol, I don’t have a clue. Poor thing, he drinks alcohol like I drink water. Anyway, I didn’t get to talk with Chip he was probably far too sick to talk. Oh, must remember to call him today to see if he survived.
Yours truly, Sunflower

Devil Dogs

Have you ever tried Devil Dogs?

Devil Dogs are only up north in states like New York or Long Island. They are a treat of huge magnitude; filled with crème puff they have a chocolate bun.
Once before I moved 2longIsland last year I was informed by my late boyfriend that his mom only serves up stale sandwiches and devil dogs. OK, confused by his statement I was only wishing for the best. Upon meeting this MOM, I was distort by such high bridges and road construction and tormented by confusion of a new place. Reality set in quickly and I was on a road to someplace I really had NO clue to. We make it to Long Island without any type of major problems. Thank god, for that I was getting worried. After unpacking for a few days we had all kinds of things with us including Mr. Ferret. Backing up to those little devil dogs served with stale sandwiches at lunch time. Guess he wasn't lying when he said that.
We were doing a lot of house improvements then, to his parents' house, I was working as hard as I have ever worked then. It was then my obsession with those sinful desserts in a wrapper. How they ever made such a wonderful snack is beyond me. I don’t eat that many snacks now but I enjoyed them Dogs. Do u have any snack u can’t live without?

Bee STING

Morning, I am waking up to a quite pleasant feeling of melancholy tunes in my head. My body feels refreshed and I am well hydrated. I did not drink a drop of alcohol last night. I was sober besides the contact buzz I received walking into the sea of crowdedness. Hippies! Kind bravery, I accept the gifts, those foreigners sent from another planet. I had plenty of friends back in the day who were “the real thing”. You can’t be mean to a hippie because they love everyone. Hugs, received with much love. What a concert the Dave Mathews Band put on. The music must have been real great when I used to listen to them. Remember when the song Satellite came out on the radio. They didn’t play that song last night, darn! I wish I would have seen them play years ago. The kids I went to see the concert with, had been saying he was sounding more like Sting in his later years. Maybe he listens to Sting? My mind was wondering off. Maybe I would see that other special guy at this concert, the one other guy I had not mentioned. Before I started dating Chipper I was half way seeing another guy. Oops! He was kinda lame thought too. He was my type but maybe too shy. Personality differences were a major hurdle. Much to my surprise I ended it with a phone message. Funny how quickly things end with an emotional meltdown. I guess I was having a bad day and he my quest for some comforting. Not only hadn’t he returned my calls for a week but I can’t even get the OK from the guard to see him. He is always NOT AVAILABLE and I say that is pissing me off. How can one man be to busy to return a call, maybe he is Lazy. Any thing but the ignoring stuff. I can’t communicate with him and I know he digs me too. There’s always this thing called timing on these relationships and our time isn’t now. Get over it. Well, I will rap it up for now, must go and make together (TODAY) productive.
Sincerely, Sunflower

16/7/2005 10:10am

Beatles Rock!
White Stripes are my favorite…..Queen to Harry Manx
Today I am going to a concert a Dave Mathews Band concert one of my favorite bands from the 90s. I thoroughly enjoy their music, but for the past years I admit I haven’t bought the new cds. TEXAS a new artist is playing now……. It is great female singer kind of soft very mellow sounding voice. I like it! Good guitar chorus and very catchy, great for driving.
I am nervous about going today to the concert, with this guy Chip. I tried to motivate myself and get out of it because I can’t stand this guy but I really want to see the concert. Is that bad or what?
I am rotten, I can’t help it. My last boyfriend spoiled me ROTTEN (and I like it that way). If only I was a blond and had DD boobs. Yeah right I would not want my boobs bigger that they are. I am very content on my size bra because they are just right for my size. If I got DDs I would look like one of those porn stars but a very expensive porn star.
You remember that story of Goldilocks; she was tired and stumbled unto the Bears house. She was quite lost and was hungry as well. In the story she goes inside the bear’s house and no one is home. Goldilocks then eats the porridge left on the table by the bears. Yes! She doesn’t stop there but goes even further to the bedroom. She tries all the beds (there’s three beds) the first bed is too soft, then she lays on the second bed and that bed is too hard, and then last bed she lays on its just right…. Then she lies down and falls asleep, not knowing where she is or who’s house it is. The bears are out and return home shortly expecting no one home. This is where I forget how this ends but I think it goes something like this… The bears come home and find Goldilocks has eaten all their porridge and now is sleeping in mama’s bed. They are very mad at this point and made a terrible roar causing Goldilocks to wake her from her slumber. Goldilocks realizing they were bears she then ran out of the house. THE END.
If you have a better ending I would love to hear it. Till then, I will leave it like that.

ROOM 4 IMPROVEMENT

At work, just recently we have had these MYSTERY SHOPPERS come and rate there service on there opinion of how they were treated. It is in there opinion of how they personally didn’t/did like your service. Not going into the whole sidereal it is too much to write. I will mention I am an overly friendly person at work very energetic. Everyone knows this and I can’t be overly excited enough. Having worked in this industry for a decade I know what I am doing and I can usually tell if some things wrong right off the bat. My intuitions are INNOCENT and I have a warm heart towards others. Some folks aren’t as open as I am to say the least I don’t blame them. Say I don’t know and have no damn clue to why I wasn’t liked. On this report they explained; guess I could only figure they were in a shitty mood. I remember them specifically and could recognize these people if I saw them again. I am not much 4 complaining because I can’t stand a whiner. Life is too short to whine and complain about things especially when it is not your fault entirely. To sum it up, they were just jerks too demanding of my time, asking too many questions, having me run back and forth. Absolutely TOO DEMANDING I could not take care of them much more. I can’t be perfect when I am supposed to be perfect to everyone at the same time.
Having to take responsibility for my mistake I was an example at work on what not to do. Blaming me was the easiest thing for them to do that night and now I understand. Maybe they should meditate on that for a while. OM.

CATCH 22

It was so freaking slow at work yesterday, I was falling asleep. God must have been punishing me for spending money on shopping earlier that day. I had gone to the Fort Lauderdale, with my brother’s girlfriend (she’s visiting from AL), and planned to go to different colleges in the area. How did we end up at the mall? “I need this” I keep telling myself that. I totally shouldn’t have bought myself nothing. You see I have a concert Saturday and I needed a new outfit. What I was thinking was I would just look at the clothes and get ideas with what I already have in my closet. That usually works instead my wires got crossed causing me to buy new stuff. This sucks! I suck big time. Now I regret this and wish I could keep the money and keep the clothes too. I have a fashion coordinator now, found him and he is great. His name is Frank and he is going to be my fashion stylist when I need him. He helped me generously with my purchase and even helped me to find these beautiful aqua earrings, which match this dress I am wearing Sat. I COULDN’T BE HAPPIER. Thanks to this Van Diesel look alike I will look GREAT!
I am as happy as a beaver…… Smiling, I can’t help it. Even though I am smiling now doesn’t mean I am excited about the bill. That is the not so fun part of it. BILLS SUCK.
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REFLECTION

Lust is a great feeling yet when love comes to mind you are stuck in that feeling. When you’re thinking its love, in actuality it is lust. I always look for advice about love it is
listening to the advice and really hearing it. Yesterday, N the SUN, I visited the bookstore to buy a book. It is a great place for some peace and quiet. Yeah Right. While I was looking through the spiritual books I was rudely interrupted by this lady on the phone. She keeps saying “JULIE NOW LISTEN TO ME! LISTEN JUST GO BACK TO THE HOTEL….JULIE” I was not listening to this woman and hoped she goes away. I am not in the mood and besides it was bringing up memories I wasn’t really ready to deal with. So, this woman on the other aisle keeps YELLING on her cell phone in the middle of a book store, what the nerve she has. “JULIE NOW LISTEN TO ME JULIE I WANT YOU TO GO THERE AND PACK YOUR THINGS AND NOT EVEN TELL HIM YOU ARE LEAVING HIM.” “JULIE, JULIE JULIE” She keeps repeating her name throughout the bookstore like to draw attention to her. What an inconsiderate woman with the biggest mouth, I seriously wanted to give her an uppercut to shut her up. It is one thing talking loud on your phone in a bookstore and another to have a crisis in the bookstore. I swear it sounded like she was having a nervous breakdown and I felt I was apart of it too. My first reaction was to move away from this ranting lunatic and find a section to browse around at. I did that and to my surprise I was being followed by this woman w/ her cell phone. I was tempted to get angry and just yell at her yet I resisted the urge. Oh, how she was stressing me out and I was only there to be unstressed. Waiting a while around the comics I came across animation comics and they were explicit. ENOUGH, I was tired of being there looking at books I could not buy and languages I could not speak, so I left. So I am wondering about how this woman’s life will turn out. She is going through a rough time trying to choose between her lover and her respect. I am only guessing that is what she is going through. It is actually rather difficult decisions to make a choice and live with that choice. What does this have to do with me? It had a lot to do with how I handled my choices I have made in my past. It is what you do with what you learned, from those choices you had to make. Learning from them and growing from your suffering. I would rather not dwell in my past but need to look toward a better future. I thank god everyday. AMEN.

HELP I AM DROWNING!

Happened to be I went to the beach Monday to get some sun rays. I never go to the beach even though I live only about a mile from it. I never go because I would rather go to the pool, this day I felt differently. I am excited about going because not only do I need a tan but it is a beautiful day. The weather was impeccable very sunny with a light breeze and calm seas. If you ever go to the beaches you will notice there are LIFEGUARDS. The tall, dark, and handsome types are my favorite one to sit near. So I park my car, pay the parking meter, and head out for the purrfert spot. I notice an empty area near some rocks that looks great for some tanning and to my surprise right in front of the lifeguard stand. Wow, now if I drown he will save me. I do my thing get my towel laid out, and then lotion on all my front side, while I reach for my headphones. Just while I was applying some oil to my skin I glanced to the right of me. A few people were out basking in the 1am sun while I was gazing at the cutie pie lifeguard. What a HUNK! Just my type TALL, DARK, DARK HAIR, SOME HAIR ON HIS CHEST that’s how you know if he is a real Man) ATHLETIC, LEAN MUSCLES, AND DID I SAY GORGOUS. Oh, yeah he has the biggest white set of teeth I have ever seen. If he wasn’t on the job I may have had to kidnap him. So anyway, I am laying out doing my thing and decide it was getting way too hot and I needed a cool down in the water. After I rewind to that in my mind, that Bo Derek film “10”comes to mind. While she is lying, on the beach, ambivalent to her surroundings even though there is a guy talking in her ear she does not notice him. Ok, so I am hot and I decide I want to take a dip. It is Florida and there are sharks in the waters but I too sweaty to care at the moment. It would have been great 5:00 news if I did get SWEPT AWAY and the handsome lifeguard had to rescue me. It’s then I notice behind me while I walk is two lifeguards at one lifeguard stand directly in front of where I am. It is like winning the lotto and I didn’t even buy a ticket. Taking my time in the water observing the water for fishes I am ready for my debut. It is just like the “Baywatch” opening song where Pam Anderson is running out of the water throwing it off while the camera skims over her. Well that was me except don’t imagine Pam Andersons’ boobs because mine aren’t that big.
I give them back lash and NO kidding double takes. Smiling> so I return to my place not without checking on my new friends. I continue to bask in the fresh air till just then I realized I was out of time on my parking meter. OH, perfect idea! Just brilliant I could have not planned it better. “MR. Lifeguard would you watch my things
(while I am batting my eyes at him) so I can put some more quarters in the meter, PLEASE.” He couldn’t resist. To be continued…..

“Chip” off the shoulder

Ah, I don’t where to start this at??? I am guessing the begin Duh. It makes me angry just thinking about him. I have this guy, at my job that I have DATED for a month. The guy I call him “Chip” is very arrogant but I didn’t know this at the when I met him.
Sounds familiar? Well I made it absolutely clear to CHIP I did not want A COMMITMENT. It is the only way for me after breaking up with Rude Jude. My intuition also told me to take it slow and it was right. After my 2nd date with Chip I found out he was divorced and was an alcoholic at 22 years old. SHIT! So I am not an alcoholic maybe just maybe he is not an alcoholic. And on top of that, everyone at work finds out we are dating after the second date and tease us. I had gone out with one of the bartenders a week earlier but it wasn’t any thing serious. So dating guys at work is not such a good idea. Say this is getting complicated now; I feel like I am in one of those soaps on TV.
OK, it not my fault that I like guys (not quite men but not a boy either) they just happen to be working with me. : ) this guy Chip is real generous with his money buying me drinks and dinners. Solid guy on the outside but I can tell inside is suffering from jealousy and an ultra ego. He telling all this shit about being a “one woman guy” and I roll my eyes. I have the confidence but he is insecure and makes rude remarks about my character. It could be when he drinks he acts this way I don’t know. It is pissing me off when guys degrade women to the point where it’s not a joke anymore. The worse part is we work together and not only do I have to put up with the shit from other employees but also my manager knows now too. The fact is he wants a girl going Bonkers over him to the extreme A MARRIAGE. I am not down with it. One more thing he bought me a ticket to the Dave Mathews Band this weekend. I am flooded with the facts and the facts are:
1. How am I going to break it off this Chip?
2. Can I break up with him and keep my job?

“Chip” off the shoulder

So I am working last night with Chip, and he and I, are way too busy to talk to each other. He is hungover from going to Orlando this week and seems a little flirty with this chick Romy. He is on my shit list now! But I casually shrug it off because I could care less if this relationship goes any further. So I made plans to go out later last night to this Irish pub with a girlfriend of mine. It didn’t occur to me to tell Chip of my plans but he asked later on what I was doing after work. Since I am now “MARRIED” (not really married) to this guy, I tell him my plans. I can't stand when someone you start to date wants to know everytime you use the toilet to report it to them. He gets really aggravated at me for telling him that and starts making obnoxious comments to me. So I left work last night and turned my cell phone off. To no surprise at all, I have a message from him this morning. What a loser! I am not a kiss and makeup kind of person.

Test taking BLUES..

Having some troubles this morning waking up there is no coffee made and my dog wakes up at 7am on the dot. She has always been my alarm clock WAKE UP, TAKE ME OUT, FEED ME. My face is wrinkled and my hair a mess while I fumble around the closet to get dressed. I barely recognize my neighbors while I pass them behind my sunglasses wondering why any body can wake up this early. Talking about today, it is way too early to talk, so I have my coffee and my lists of things I must do before I work. I have too much stress lately and I can’t handle it. I am going to EXPLODE, and I will
Fall in the deep. I have like a million lists I make during the day if not on paper in my head. I have a little problem; I make a list for everything. It is like a little reminder so I will not forget. If I hear a song I like I write it on my list. I used to be notorious for this when I had worked as an administrative assistant in a large construction company. Making a list was a big help in supplies needed etc. etc.etc... This day though still young with life I am not very excited about it. Must take the exam, at the college this week
in order to get my courses. TAKING TESTS ARE MY WORSE!!!! ahhhhhhhh I would rather eat anchovies (Yuck) than take a test. In order to do this I heard relaxing before the exam is the best thing for me. Have any suggestions?

Blondie Driving

1Items always to keep in car at all times in case of emergency:
1) Bathing suit
2) Lotion for tanning
3) Two changes of clothes- never know where you are gonna be next.
4) Sunglasses a must!
5) Preferred umbrella to keep the sun out of my eyes
6) Towel- for laying out
7) Camera- always handy to have one
8) Running shoes- if I feel like a run
9) Water- always should hydrate
10) Maybe a healthy snack
11) Deodorants as well as makeup
12) High Heels
13) Fire Extinguisher
14) First Aid kit
15) Mace
16) A few dollars put in a safe place so if you were robbed you would not be broke.

Southern Accent

If anybody hasn’t read my moms site Assorted Babble then do so. She is not kidding about the stories she is babbling about. Sometimes it is hard for me to understand some of the stuff my family is talking to me about. It is like when I talk with relatives they our talking Italian or some foreign language to me. I lost my accent long time ago in Alabama, thank God. I guess I could thank the entire flock of tourist from all the SNOW BIRD states, for that. When I started saying “HEY you guys” instead of “Hey Y’all” that’s when I started getting harassed by all/only boy cousins. “It’s just not right to be saying that, it is y’all” one would say. See I was the only girl among all my cousins so when I was young they thought they were protecting me from BOYS and any chances of a date were slim. They would know about anyone wanting to date me because lets not forget it is a small town and what comes around goes around. You say something and in minutes half the town knows what you said. That fast no kidding!


It is rough here in Florida if anyone finds out you are from the South. Even though Florida is south of Alabama that is not that way in South Florida. When I first moved here around 5 years ago I would have panic attacks just going to the mall. I was never around so many people before and so much traffic too. I was always a 30 minutes drive away from the major highway so when I was 5 minutes away to I95 I panicked. Sounds silly huh? That was just the way it was to me. My stress level was so high just leaving the house I gained 20lbs. in two months. I remember one time this guy in a bar asked me where I was from and I said “ALABAMA” and he would not shut his mouth; he had to impersonate his best southern accent. He was from New York and after that I didn’t like New Yorkers for a long time or at least I didn’t say it out loud. See when I am suppose to be all manners at least that’s is what my mother taught me and her mother taught her and so on and so on…. When my children grow up (I have none now) I will do the same teaching them “manners”. So what was I just talking about? Oh, yeah my southern accent. Ok, I lost my southern accent before I ever left THE SOUTH I have always never liked Country music and never enjoyed the thrills of being a redneck. My interests were always to travel to New York and be open to other cultures. Since rednecks didn’t like certain kinds of people I liked them just to be different. I am not saying my whole family is like prejudice but the majority is. I am different than they are and I have never changed me to fit them. If that makes cents I don’t know. I am very happy to be living in a beautiful place where I can explore many cultures and see very interesting ways of life. I could never move back to Alabama because I already know Florida is where my heart is. FOR NOW.

Please Forgive Me..MOM

My mother is the star of my life! She is the greatest mother and friend I have. We have been very close but especially this last year when lots have happened in both our lives. We have had to work at it and it has NOT been easy to understand each other. I really love her to death, always will. She has been both mother and father to my brother and me our entire life. Since my father and mother divorced so early on in my life, I was raised primarily by mom. I CAN ONLY IMAGINE BEING A MOTHER TODAY being I AM 25 especially if I was a mother of two. I can hardly take care of myself so if I had two kids running around I would go nuts. It is really difficult to understand when she gives advice to me that I need to listen with an open heart because I know she has more experience than I do. I am pleading with her this morning to excuse me last night for the way I was acting. My actions were in excusable and I hope you will forgive me.

Friday Night!

Good Day to all you BLOGGERS IN WEB WORLD…You are NOT going to believe this…Yesterday I was talking on the cell phone to my latest BOY TOY let’s call him Dr. Dino when all of a sudden he realized after talking to me all this time he was still in love with his ex-girlfriend! We had been talking a while about why him and I was single and how are last relationships ended. I guess I made him realize what he did wrong and that it was his fault for their breakup. To my surprise I was shocked when he said he wanted to get back with his old girlfriend, because we have a date Friday and I want SUSHI. Can’t it wait for two days before you’re decision? Geez that is so typical of my dating life always making it right with the ex. I sit here this morning I looking for a man to take me to dinner or lunch Friday. I am 5’’10’ tall HUH! slim, very long dark hair, etc. Must I go on….Any volunteers? After talking to Dr. Dino I made him realize that he was a jerk to his last girlfriend and that it was his fault for there breakup.
He should take me out Friday because he owes me for the advice given. Hell, I just wanted a date for Friday night and dinner too.

Tell me more...

Hey, Guess I should post something since I haven’t in a few days. I have had a roller coaster of a week so far and I am not lying. First off Monday was a disaster I was big time hung over. I had too many shots and drinks the night before. Thinking about going to work only made it worse. After trying every excuse in the book I could not get out of going. So, if I didn’t want to lose my job I would have to go in. So after numerous attempts at finding my uniform and putting my hair back I laid back down on the bed. I was going to work even if I looked like shit. So I reached work, lucky for me the boss was real generous to let me go back home. I was feeling like I was run over by a semi and went straight back to bed on Forth of July. I had no party left in me and I didn’t care. If I learned a lesson from all this is that I will never drink later night if I have to work the next day!
Does anybody have a better drunken story to share?
What did you do Fourth of July?

A joker

An Eskimo had been waiting for his girlfriend in front of a movie theatre for a long time and it was getting colder and colder. After a while, shivering with cold and rather infuriated he opened his coat and drew out a thermometer. He then said loudly, “If she is not here at 15, I’m going!”.

Let Life Live!

Why is the world so cruel? I mean if you want a pet to die let it die of old age right? I wonder sometimes if we are death monsters, always looking to kill something. Had a table at work 2 days ago, who worked at an animal hospital, they had there uniform on that is a giveaway. I asked one of the men what was the most disgusting thing he saw while working there. He didn’t hesitate to say that one day he was snooping around and found a plastic bag placed in a large chamber. He said that was pretty bad to see. If there is anyway that I can save a pet from that I do. I can say that all my pets I have ever had in the past and now I have saved from the shelter. At least that is one less pet to put to sleep.

Quote it!

*** Quote of the Day
Perfect love is rare indeed - for to be a lovër will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain. – Leo Buscaglia, 1924-1998, American Author and Expert on Love and Human Relationships

Madness

This weekend is total CRAZINESS!!! Why do these idiot neighbors have to shoot their bottlerockets at my head? They should have enough sense to know I will come over there and beat down their head! I once saw a dog swollow a firework in it's mouth, it lived. Fourth of July to most are to go out get drunk and be a FOOL. What kind of independence are you after?

FROM DAWN TO DUST

The day begins all around the earth every other second round AND ROUND IT SPINS.I AM HAPPY TO SEE PEOPLE TAKING THE DAY AND MAKING IT CONSTRUCTIVE. Why not live??? So, get up and catch the worm first.

Happy Go Lucky

Today is my first blog, still trying to figure this out!!! Any suggestions?