I like it RAW!

Unless you choose to do great things with it, it makes no difference
how
much you are rewarded, or how much power you have. – Oprah Winfrey,
American Actress and Television Talk Show Host


Lately, I have been having a personal health check up on myself. I am really conscious of the things I put in my mouth, even if it is FDA approved. I don’t see why the majority of Americans are obese is it the entire Mac & cheese we consume or the sodas we drink? I am assured that the whole nation needs a makeover and I want to help with giving a little advice. Being a health nut all my life I see my friends and family abuse their bodies, instead of reaching for a fruit they go to a bag of chips instead. Statistics show that our ancestors had better teeth than we do in the present. It is all the sugar consuming or the meat overloads on the body. We as a nation (only US) have a higher rate of cancer than any other nation or nations combined. You would think this would motivate us to look at what we eat. I am right now reading a book that is transforming the way I look at life. It is called “Eating for Beauty” by David Wolfe, my dad recommended it for me, and it is a great book to have. It starts off by saying that all life in our fruit or vegetables is minerals ands nutrients we need to have a healthy beautiful body. He states that studies have shown that after you cook vegetables they lose most of the nutrients. Therefore if you want the vitamins, you need not cook them but eat them raw. David writes about having to detoxify to transform into a body beauty. Eating now isn’t just going into the cabinet and finding something you feel like eating anymore. He lies down a simple, balanced, and easy diet that is back to civilization kind of eating. He goes through all the reasons why eating raw is better and why humans aren’t suppose to eat meat. He has remedies for sicknesses like common colds and gives natural recipes for facials or what have you. I am not trying to change you into a vegan but want you to look at yourself next time you reach for that cheeseburger. Your mind can tell you one thing but your body is saying another. I personally take vitamins and work at eating right EVERYDAY. It’s real hard to quit these foods that we are think are good but it is good for your body.

Dear God,

Havin a good day today? I hope you are well. I am writing you for concern about my future. All my dreams and desires haven't all came true yet. I want so much more out of life so much more I want to see and accomplish. I would like the strength to do all these things and more. Give me the patience it requires to get through my work day without much fighting. I pray that my family is in good health and that they may live long lives. My heart goes out to all those families that have sons and daughters in the war, that they may have a safe trip home. I feel very hopeful that I am following the right path you want me too. Do tell Jesus we send hugs and kisses his way. Love always, Sunflower

Blood, Sweat and Tears

Today was a horrible day to be driving in traffic with no A/C. It was like 100 or so degrees out there and the wind factor felt like none. Zero miles per hour with no breeze to cool me off, it’s just awful. Luckily I was not going far but I chose the wrong route in which to get there. Just about a 30 minute ride in the hottest hour of the day WITH NO A/C (I can’t stress that enough).
My thoughts go out to all the homeless people, in Arizona, that have died this week without a way to cool off. The temperatures all over the country have been unbearable for some folks. In some areas where people do not even own air-conditioning units have been really been feeling the heat. It is horrific to think of not having an a/c at all, but if there was a chilly breeze year around I might not mind.
What we do if we didn’t have some of these things we so depend on for life? I can name plenty of things I could not live without. We always talk ourselves into things we want but not need or isn’t necessary. Then after we think it is a necessity, that what we think we want, is causing us to carry a responsibility for it. It is like when I get a new credit card I sign the dotted line saying I hold that burden of paying it off. If you are used to a certain luxury than you become accustom to, it is hard to downgrade to the cheaper version. Like take for example, if you have steak every night than something happens and you can’t afford it but you want it still. It is really hard for you to not be able to have a steak but you can sacrifice not having other things to have what you like the most (like steak). Things though get in the way like electric bills or rent and then you are back to square one. I once knew an alcoholic bum who used to work for us on the jobsite. He was a pleasant man very social able and worked really hard but at the end of the day he didn’t like the idea of paying rent. He would have rather slept on a bench than pay a nickel of his alcohol money on rent, just a thought in the mind of a bum.
I work hard for what I have and sometimes it isn’t easy but that‘s reality for what I want in my life. Has all the bills been paid this month? Does my spending go beyond what I make per month? What is it I want for the future? How can I achieve my goals?

Say Cheese !!

Everyone has a childhood dream job, right? Mine was to become a National Geographic photographer and take pictures in Africa or wherever the assignments took me. I would pretend to see myself in the pictures as if I were there, pretending I had to be quiet or an elephant would stump on me. Well, when you’re a kid everything is amplified as if you’re drunk. So what, even if it was a dangerous job I didn’t care it was a rush to imagine what it would be like. That was just one of my DREAM JOBS what was yours?

“Nothing is as real as a dream. The world can change around you, but your dream will not. Responsibilities need not erase it. Duties need not obscure it. Because the dream is within you, no one can take it away.” -Tom Clancy, American Novelist

IT'S MONDAY?

Can’t get enough…___________! I am so tired right now, I can’t sleep and then my dog alarm went off at 5:30am, then 6:00, at 7:00, and 8:00, and 8:15, and 8:30am when I finally couldn’t take it anymore. My purpose in life to me doesn’t involve waking up to a big snoutie rotteweiller, in my face, whining. I have been through so much with this dog and she has more issues than I have. The worse thing is that I can’t stand, is to be rudely awakened, at the wee hours of the morning by my dog. You know what I mean? You are dreaming of a hot guy in a car when all of a sudden you hear this “ewww, ewww”with at a high sounding frequency. Oh yeah, I am dreaming! F**K I am fr**king pissed off! Why me? Why must it be me? AAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cannot say enough how much this is so bloody unfair. I guess others have it worse, like having CHILDREN or having to wake up early anyway, but I just want to wake up on my own. I don’t get much sleep as it is. On top of this I am so mad it is Monday. MAD that’s right! I was cool last week but today I am grouchy, WATCH OUT! You don’t want to be around me in a bad mood. Forget about it. Anyway that’s it for now! I want to read all your posts this morning but I promise there will be more.

Godiva Is 4 Me

I am wishing I had one of these shakes RIGHT NOW!!!! It is the most delicious drinks on earth. Tell me about your cravings and what is your favorite. What does your sweet tooth tell you today what you want to eat or drink?

Valley Girl?

I am leaving you in suspense, but I am not meaning too. It is just like Chipper got my signals and has left me alone for now at least. Yeah! CHEERS I hear coming from the stadium. Smiling! Yes, I guess I have a bit of cheerleader in me. Team Spirit Perhaps!
I wasn’t much of a valley girl in high school like I am now. If you saw me in high school you’d say “Hey look at that grunge Chick over there!” I was not like some of those girls stuck each others asses. I had so many friends gone enemies from middle school to high school; I jus wasn’t the same person from middle school. If they were really my friends they would have understood that and accepted who I was. Instead they rolled there tongues at me and snarled at me in disgust. I never did shit, 2 these acquaintances that was what they had become. My choice was to not follow there shitty rules of what was NORMAL. I was far from NORMAL and I objected. Walking in the hallways of the HIGH SCHOOL so many cliques (groups of certain types of crowds). You had the snob patrol you know the cheerleaders and football players, then the black rappers w/ there girlfriends, also the pot heads or alternatives, the nerds or computer geeks, I think that is all em’ if I left any out just remind me in my comments. I was friends with them all so I was asocial butterfly. I had friends of all types always have never treated anyone different for being who they are. Now since I am realizing what looks good on my body and personality I wear what I feel comfortable in, not what I want to please others with. Jesus never was toward just one type of person or group he did not judge others. He treated them all the same. He is someone to look at for reference when you are confused and don’t know. What would Jesus DO?

Pray 4 Londoners

WTF! It is absurd to think that London is being attacked again by terrorist. It seems to be another attack this day in London but not sure the details yet. My prayers go out to the people there, I am praying for no more future attacks. Can’t there be steps to prevent this from happening again?
I pray that the terrorist have a change of heart, wanting peace not war.
“Hoping for the best and accepting the facts” Mr. Blair,
Please pull together and change the laws against terrorist!!!

;( BooHOO

I am totally pissed off at the world today. I was looking up tour dates to see Stereophonics in concert and to my disbelief there are no more US tour dates. Freakin disappointed. I can not believe if I want to see these guys in concert I will have to go to Europe. You don’t know how bad I want to see them play.
P.S. I might just have to take a trip to Europe!

Q & A

Got this questions to ponder on, off of Aish.com:
How long have you known him? How well do you know him?
Where did he grow up?
Is he dating for the purpose of marriage?
How does he like to have fun / spend vacations / do in his spare time?
What type of person is he looking for?
What does he look like?
What are his friends like?
Where is he heading in terms of spiritual growth and Jewish observance?
What is his outlook on life?
What does he want to do with his life - career, education, involvement in the community?
What kind of lifestyle would he like to have?
Does he smoke? Drink? How much?
Where did he receive his education?
Describe his personality.
What frustrates him and how does he handle frustration? How patient is he?
How does he react when a friend or family member has a problem?
Have you ever seen him deal with an emergency or crisis? How did he react?
What importance does he place on dressing fashionably? On grooming?
Did he face any challenges when he was growing up - illness, family problems, educational issues? And how did he deal with them?
Do you think he has the emotional stability to be a good marriage partner?
Do you have any reservations about recommending him as a potential marriage partner?
What is he looking for in a future spouse?
What qualities can he bring to a marriage?
Why do you think he would be a good match for me?
What is his family like?
How do the parents relate to each other? (You can ask this even if they are divorced.)
What kind of relationship does he have with his parents?
What are his siblings like?
What kind of relationship do his siblings have with their parents? With each other?
What kind of connection do his parents have with their community? Who is their rabbi? What synagogue do they attend?
What kind of education and careers do the parents have? What is their cultural background? Their worldview?

CHIPPER

Something I learned tonight is to not get overly excited over anything because it only ends in disappointments. I can think of a few conclusions that came to me tonight. One is I must end things I have no interest in anymore, that includes bad relationships. Chip has got to go; he is not anything I see as being attracted to. I have no reason to continue seeing him there is absolutely no connection anymore. I will break up with this boy who is way too young for me anyway and find someone that is more interesting. How will this plan work? Maybe something like “Sorry Chip but I can’t see you anymore because I am in love with someone else.” It sounds cheesy? Yes, that is way too lame. I wish I hadn’t been so nice at the beginning. I must be vicious like in INDIANA JONES when the bad guy takes his fist and pulls out a live beating heart. That is hard core suffering I feel the pain.
If that doesn’t work I will have to have plan B. What do you think I should do to him to give him the idea I am not interested.

Grouchy Daze

Grouchy in the dictionary is an adjective and means ill-tempered, suddenly discontented. Feeling grouchy this morning I just laid back down in bed for two hours. I am just realizing I have not worked out in like a couple weeks. I look at myself in the mirror, not bad…But I could look better. I have always been a person to be conscious what I am eating or what my butt looks like. Exercising is just my way of life something I just do. You could ask my mom, she will tell you. I am a size 4 and 5’11’ at 130 lbs. and I am very content with that. If I gain 5lbs. or see I am getting cellulite on the back of my legs, I will get flustered. Growing up I wasn’t the only person like this but I have never been anorexic or bulimic but some of my girlfriends were. I have always had high metabolism or something like that. It is a shame when you’re young and see all the models on magazine covers looking what the IDEA of beautiful is. I had this boyfriend who didn’t want me to eat because he wanted me to be skinny. I am skinny Idiot. I am as tiny as any of those models in the covers if I was thinner than I am I would look sick. So I am thinking I should at least get on the treadmill and do a little of aerobics. On occasion I do some yoga to relax me but I see more results with aerobics. I am also contemplating going to the beach for some sun and to see that hot lifeguard for a chat. Well I will see maybe tomorrow on my day off. Not much going on here today all is well now.
Update on Chip: Called him from work and received a phone call back from his friend from the concert. Yesterday he went saw the Dave Mathews Band on the second day in a limo. Right! His friend said Chip was sick in the bathroom from drinking a half a bottle of some sort of alcohol, I don’t have a clue. Poor thing, he drinks alcohol like I drink water. Anyway, I didn’t get to talk with Chip he was probably far too sick to talk. Oh, must remember to call him today to see if he survived.
Yours truly, Sunflower

Devil Dogs

Have you ever tried Devil Dogs?

Devil Dogs are only up north in states like New York or Long Island. They are a treat of huge magnitude; filled with crème puff they have a chocolate bun.
Once before I moved 2longIsland last year I was informed by my late boyfriend that his mom only serves up stale sandwiches and devil dogs. OK, confused by his statement I was only wishing for the best. Upon meeting this MOM, I was distort by such high bridges and road construction and tormented by confusion of a new place. Reality set in quickly and I was on a road to someplace I really had NO clue to. We make it to Long Island without any type of major problems. Thank god, for that I was getting worried. After unpacking for a few days we had all kinds of things with us including Mr. Ferret. Backing up to those little devil dogs served with stale sandwiches at lunch time. Guess he wasn't lying when he said that.
We were doing a lot of house improvements then, to his parents' house, I was working as hard as I have ever worked then. It was then my obsession with those sinful desserts in a wrapper. How they ever made such a wonderful snack is beyond me. I don’t eat that many snacks now but I enjoyed them Dogs. Do u have any snack u can’t live without?

Bee STING

Morning, I am waking up to a quite pleasant feeling of melancholy tunes in my head. My body feels refreshed and I am well hydrated. I did not drink a drop of alcohol last night. I was sober besides the contact buzz I received walking into the sea of crowdedness. Hippies! Kind bravery, I accept the gifts, those foreigners sent from another planet. I had plenty of friends back in the day who were “the real thing”. You can’t be mean to a hippie because they love everyone. Hugs, received with much love. What a concert the Dave Mathews Band put on. The music must have been real great when I used to listen to them. Remember when the song Satellite came out on the radio. They didn’t play that song last night, darn! I wish I would have seen them play years ago. The kids I went to see the concert with, had been saying he was sounding more like Sting in his later years. Maybe he listens to Sting? My mind was wondering off. Maybe I would see that other special guy at this concert, the one other guy I had not mentioned. Before I started dating Chipper I was half way seeing another guy. Oops! He was kinda lame thought too. He was my type but maybe too shy. Personality differences were a major hurdle. Much to my surprise I ended it with a phone message. Funny how quickly things end with an emotional meltdown. I guess I was having a bad day and he my quest for some comforting. Not only hadn’t he returned my calls for a week but I can’t even get the OK from the guard to see him. He is always NOT AVAILABLE and I say that is pissing me off. How can one man be to busy to return a call, maybe he is Lazy. Any thing but the ignoring stuff. I can’t communicate with him and I know he digs me too. There’s always this thing called timing on these relationships and our time isn’t now. Get over it. Well, I will rap it up for now, must go and make together (TODAY) productive.
Sincerely, Sunflower

16/7/2005 10:10am

Beatles Rock!
White Stripes are my favorite…..Queen to Harry Manx
Today I am going to a concert a Dave Mathews Band concert one of my favorite bands from the 90s. I thoroughly enjoy their music, but for the past years I admit I haven’t bought the new cds. TEXAS a new artist is playing now……. It is great female singer kind of soft very mellow sounding voice. I like it! Good guitar chorus and very catchy, great for driving.
I am nervous about going today to the concert, with this guy Chip. I tried to motivate myself and get out of it because I can’t stand this guy but I really want to see the concert. Is that bad or what?
I am rotten, I can’t help it. My last boyfriend spoiled me ROTTEN (and I like it that way). If only I was a blond and had DD boobs. Yeah right I would not want my boobs bigger that they are. I am very content on my size bra because they are just right for my size. If I got DDs I would look like one of those porn stars but a very expensive porn star.
You remember that story of Goldilocks; she was tired and stumbled unto the Bears house. She was quite lost and was hungry as well. In the story she goes inside the bear’s house and no one is home. Goldilocks then eats the porridge left on the table by the bears. Yes! She doesn’t stop there but goes even further to the bedroom. She tries all the beds (there’s three beds) the first bed is too soft, then she lays on the second bed and that bed is too hard, and then last bed she lays on its just right…. Then she lies down and falls asleep, not knowing where she is or who’s house it is. The bears are out and return home shortly expecting no one home. This is where I forget how this ends but I think it goes something like this… The bears come home and find Goldilocks has eaten all their porridge and now is sleeping in mama’s bed. They are very mad at this point and made a terrible roar causing Goldilocks to wake her from her slumber. Goldilocks realizing they were bears she then ran out of the house. THE END.
If you have a better ending I would love to hear it. Till then, I will leave it like that.

ROOM 4 IMPROVEMENT

At work, just recently we have had these MYSTERY SHOPPERS come and rate there service on there opinion of how they were treated. It is in there opinion of how they personally didn’t/did like your service. Not going into the whole sidereal it is too much to write. I will mention I am an overly friendly person at work very energetic. Everyone knows this and I can’t be overly excited enough. Having worked in this industry for a decade I know what I am doing and I can usually tell if some things wrong right off the bat. My intuitions are INNOCENT and I have a warm heart towards others. Some folks aren’t as open as I am to say the least I don’t blame them. Say I don’t know and have no damn clue to why I wasn’t liked. On this report they explained; guess I could only figure they were in a shitty mood. I remember them specifically and could recognize these people if I saw them again. I am not much 4 complaining because I can’t stand a whiner. Life is too short to whine and complain about things especially when it is not your fault entirely. To sum it up, they were just jerks too demanding of my time, asking too many questions, having me run back and forth. Absolutely TOO DEMANDING I could not take care of them much more. I can’t be perfect when I am supposed to be perfect to everyone at the same time.
Having to take responsibility for my mistake I was an example at work on what not to do. Blaming me was the easiest thing for them to do that night and now I understand. Maybe they should meditate on that for a while. OM.

CATCH 22

It was so freaking slow at work yesterday, I was falling asleep. God must have been punishing me for spending money on shopping earlier that day. I had gone to the Fort Lauderdale, with my brother’s girlfriend (she’s visiting from AL), and planned to go to different colleges in the area. How did we end up at the mall? “I need this” I keep telling myself that. I totally shouldn’t have bought myself nothing. You see I have a concert Saturday and I needed a new outfit. What I was thinking was I would just look at the clothes and get ideas with what I already have in my closet. That usually works instead my wires got crossed causing me to buy new stuff. This sucks! I suck big time. Now I regret this and wish I could keep the money and keep the clothes too. I have a fashion coordinator now, found him and he is great. His name is Frank and he is going to be my fashion stylist when I need him. He helped me generously with my purchase and even helped me to find these beautiful aqua earrings, which match this dress I am wearing Sat. I COULDN’T BE HAPPIER. Thanks to this Van Diesel look alike I will look GREAT!
I am as happy as a beaver…… Smiling, I can’t help it. Even though I am smiling now doesn’t mean I am excited about the bill. That is the not so fun part of it. BILLS SUCK.
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REFLECTION

Lust is a great feeling yet when love comes to mind you are stuck in that feeling. When you’re thinking its love, in actuality it is lust. I always look for advice about love it is
listening to the advice and really hearing it. Yesterday, N the SUN, I visited the bookstore to buy a book. It is a great place for some peace and quiet. Yeah Right. While I was looking through the spiritual books I was rudely interrupted by this lady on the phone. She keeps saying “JULIE NOW LISTEN TO ME! LISTEN JUST GO BACK TO THE HOTEL….JULIE” I was not listening to this woman and hoped she goes away. I am not in the mood and besides it was bringing up memories I wasn’t really ready to deal with. So, this woman on the other aisle keeps YELLING on her cell phone in the middle of a book store, what the nerve she has. “JULIE NOW LISTEN TO ME JULIE I WANT YOU TO GO THERE AND PACK YOUR THINGS AND NOT EVEN TELL HIM YOU ARE LEAVING HIM.” “JULIE, JULIE JULIE” She keeps repeating her name throughout the bookstore like to draw attention to her. What an inconsiderate woman with the biggest mouth, I seriously wanted to give her an uppercut to shut her up. It is one thing talking loud on your phone in a bookstore and another to have a crisis in the bookstore. I swear it sounded like she was having a nervous breakdown and I felt I was apart of it too. My first reaction was to move away from this ranting lunatic and find a section to browse around at. I did that and to my surprise I was being followed by this woman w/ her cell phone. I was tempted to get angry and just yell at her yet I resisted the urge. Oh, how she was stressing me out and I was only there to be unstressed. Waiting a while around the comics I came across animation comics and they were explicit. ENOUGH, I was tired of being there looking at books I could not buy and languages I could not speak, so I left. So I am wondering about how this woman’s life will turn out. She is going through a rough time trying to choose between her lover and her respect. I am only guessing that is what she is going through. It is actually rather difficult decisions to make a choice and live with that choice. What does this have to do with me? It had a lot to do with how I handled my choices I have made in my past. It is what you do with what you learned, from those choices you had to make. Learning from them and growing from your suffering. I would rather not dwell in my past but need to look toward a better future. I thank god everyday. AMEN.

HELP I AM DROWNING!

Happened to be I went to the beach Monday to get some sun rays. I never go to the beach even though I live only about a mile from it. I never go because I would rather go to the pool, this day I felt differently. I am excited about going because not only do I need a tan but it is a beautiful day. The weather was impeccable very sunny with a light breeze and calm seas. If you ever go to the beaches you will notice there are LIFEGUARDS. The tall, dark, and handsome types are my favorite one to sit near. So I park my car, pay the parking meter, and head out for the purrfert spot. I notice an empty area near some rocks that looks great for some tanning and to my surprise right in front of the lifeguard stand. Wow, now if I drown he will save me. I do my thing get my towel laid out, and then lotion on all my front side, while I reach for my headphones. Just while I was applying some oil to my skin I glanced to the right of me. A few people were out basking in the 1am sun while I was gazing at the cutie pie lifeguard. What a HUNK! Just my type TALL, DARK, DARK HAIR, SOME HAIR ON HIS CHEST that’s how you know if he is a real Man) ATHLETIC, LEAN MUSCLES, AND DID I SAY GORGOUS. Oh, yeah he has the biggest white set of teeth I have ever seen. If he wasn’t on the job I may have had to kidnap him. So anyway, I am laying out doing my thing and decide it was getting way too hot and I needed a cool down in the water. After I rewind to that in my mind, that Bo Derek film “10”comes to mind. While she is lying, on the beach, ambivalent to her surroundings even though there is a guy talking in her ear she does not notice him. Ok, so I am hot and I decide I want to take a dip. It is Florida and there are sharks in the waters but I too sweaty to care at the moment. It would have been great 5:00 news if I did get SWEPT AWAY and the handsome lifeguard had to rescue me. It’s then I notice behind me while I walk is two lifeguards at one lifeguard stand directly in front of where I am. It is like winning the lotto and I didn’t even buy a ticket. Taking my time in the water observing the water for fishes I am ready for my debut. It is just like the “Baywatch” opening song where Pam Anderson is running out of the water throwing it off while the camera skims over her. Well that was me except don’t imagine Pam Andersons’ boobs because mine aren’t that big.
I give them back lash and NO kidding double takes. Smiling> so I return to my place not without checking on my new friends. I continue to bask in the fresh air till just then I realized I was out of time on my parking meter. OH, perfect idea! Just brilliant I could have not planned it better. “MR. Lifeguard would you watch my things
(while I am batting my eyes at him) so I can put some more quarters in the meter, PLEASE.” He couldn’t resist. To be continued…..

“Chip” off the shoulder

Ah, I don’t where to start this at??? I am guessing the begin Duh. It makes me angry just thinking about him. I have this guy, at my job that I have DATED for a month. The guy I call him “Chip” is very arrogant but I didn’t know this at the when I met him.
Sounds familiar? Well I made it absolutely clear to CHIP I did not want A COMMITMENT. It is the only way for me after breaking up with Rude Jude. My intuition also told me to take it slow and it was right. After my 2nd date with Chip I found out he was divorced and was an alcoholic at 22 years old. SHIT! So I am not an alcoholic maybe just maybe he is not an alcoholic. And on top of that, everyone at work finds out we are dating after the second date and tease us. I had gone out with one of the bartenders a week earlier but it wasn’t any thing serious. So dating guys at work is not such a good idea. Say this is getting complicated now; I feel like I am in one of those soaps on TV.
OK, it not my fault that I like guys (not quite men but not a boy either) they just happen to be working with me. : ) this guy Chip is real generous with his money buying me drinks and dinners. Solid guy on the outside but I can tell inside is suffering from jealousy and an ultra ego. He telling all this shit about being a “one woman guy” and I roll my eyes. I have the confidence but he is insecure and makes rude remarks about my character. It could be when he drinks he acts this way I don’t know. It is pissing me off when guys degrade women to the point where it’s not a joke anymore. The worse part is we work together and not only do I have to put up with the shit from other employees but also my manager knows now too. The fact is he wants a girl going Bonkers over him to the extreme A MARRIAGE. I am not down with it. One more thing he bought me a ticket to the Dave Mathews Band this weekend. I am flooded with the facts and the facts are:
1. How am I going to break it off this Chip?
2. Can I break up with him and keep my job?

“Chip” off the shoulder

So I am working last night with Chip, and he and I, are way too busy to talk to each other. He is hungover from going to Orlando this week and seems a little flirty with this chick Romy. He is on my shit list now! But I casually shrug it off because I could care less if this relationship goes any further. So I made plans to go out later last night to this Irish pub with a girlfriend of mine. It didn’t occur to me to tell Chip of my plans but he asked later on what I was doing after work. Since I am now “MARRIED” (not really married) to this guy, I tell him my plans. I can't stand when someone you start to date wants to know everytime you use the toilet to report it to them. He gets really aggravated at me for telling him that and starts making obnoxious comments to me. So I left work last night and turned my cell phone off. To no surprise at all, I have a message from him this morning. What a loser! I am not a kiss and makeup kind of person.

Test taking BLUES..

Having some troubles this morning waking up there is no coffee made and my dog wakes up at 7am on the dot. She has always been my alarm clock WAKE UP, TAKE ME OUT, FEED ME. My face is wrinkled and my hair a mess while I fumble around the closet to get dressed. I barely recognize my neighbors while I pass them behind my sunglasses wondering why any body can wake up this early. Talking about today, it is way too early to talk, so I have my coffee and my lists of things I must do before I work. I have too much stress lately and I can’t handle it. I am going to EXPLODE, and I will
Fall in the deep. I have like a million lists I make during the day if not on paper in my head. I have a little problem; I make a list for everything. It is like a little reminder so I will not forget. If I hear a song I like I write it on my list. I used to be notorious for this when I had worked as an administrative assistant in a large construction company. Making a list was a big help in supplies needed etc. etc.etc... This day though still young with life I am not very excited about it. Must take the exam, at the college this week
in order to get my courses. TAKING TESTS ARE MY WORSE!!!! ahhhhhhhh I would rather eat anchovies (Yuck) than take a test. In order to do this I heard relaxing before the exam is the best thing for me. Have any suggestions?

Blondie Driving

1Items always to keep in car at all times in case of emergency:
1) Bathing suit
2) Lotion for tanning
3) Two changes of clothes- never know where you are gonna be next.
4) Sunglasses a must!
5) Preferred umbrella to keep the sun out of my eyes
6) Towel- for laying out
7) Camera- always handy to have one
8) Running shoes- if I feel like a run
9) Water- always should hydrate
10) Maybe a healthy snack
11) Deodorants as well as makeup
12) High Heels
13) Fire Extinguisher
14) First Aid kit
15) Mace
16) A few dollars put in a safe place so if you were robbed you would not be broke.

Southern Accent

If anybody hasn’t read my moms site Assorted Babble then do so. She is not kidding about the stories she is babbling about. Sometimes it is hard for me to understand some of the stuff my family is talking to me about. It is like when I talk with relatives they our talking Italian or some foreign language to me. I lost my accent long time ago in Alabama, thank God. I guess I could thank the entire flock of tourist from all the SNOW BIRD states, for that. When I started saying “HEY you guys” instead of “Hey Y’all” that’s when I started getting harassed by all/only boy cousins. “It’s just not right to be saying that, it is y’all” one would say. See I was the only girl among all my cousins so when I was young they thought they were protecting me from BOYS and any chances of a date were slim. They would know about anyone wanting to date me because lets not forget it is a small town and what comes around goes around. You say something and in minutes half the town knows what you said. That fast no kidding!


It is rough here in Florida if anyone finds out you are from the South. Even though Florida is south of Alabama that is not that way in South Florida. When I first moved here around 5 years ago I would have panic attacks just going to the mall. I was never around so many people before and so much traffic too. I was always a 30 minutes drive away from the major highway so when I was 5 minutes away to I95 I panicked. Sounds silly huh? That was just the way it was to me. My stress level was so high just leaving the house I gained 20lbs. in two months. I remember one time this guy in a bar asked me where I was from and I said “ALABAMA” and he would not shut his mouth; he had to impersonate his best southern accent. He was from New York and after that I didn’t like New Yorkers for a long time or at least I didn’t say it out loud. See when I am suppose to be all manners at least that’s is what my mother taught me and her mother taught her and so on and so on…. When my children grow up (I have none now) I will do the same teaching them “manners”. So what was I just talking about? Oh, yeah my southern accent. Ok, I lost my southern accent before I ever left THE SOUTH I have always never liked Country music and never enjoyed the thrills of being a redneck. My interests were always to travel to New York and be open to other cultures. Since rednecks didn’t like certain kinds of people I liked them just to be different. I am not saying my whole family is like prejudice but the majority is. I am different than they are and I have never changed me to fit them. If that makes cents I don’t know. I am very happy to be living in a beautiful place where I can explore many cultures and see very interesting ways of life. I could never move back to Alabama because I already know Florida is where my heart is. FOR NOW.

Please Forgive Me..MOM

My mother is the star of my life! She is the greatest mother and friend I have. We have been very close but especially this last year when lots have happened in both our lives. We have had to work at it and it has NOT been easy to understand each other. I really love her to death, always will. She has been both mother and father to my brother and me our entire life. Since my father and mother divorced so early on in my life, I was raised primarily by mom. I CAN ONLY IMAGINE BEING A MOTHER TODAY being I AM 25 especially if I was a mother of two. I can hardly take care of myself so if I had two kids running around I would go nuts. It is really difficult to understand when she gives advice to me that I need to listen with an open heart because I know she has more experience than I do. I am pleading with her this morning to excuse me last night for the way I was acting. My actions were in excusable and I hope you will forgive me.

Friday Night!

Good Day to all you BLOGGERS IN WEB WORLD…You are NOT going to believe this…Yesterday I was talking on the cell phone to my latest BOY TOY let’s call him Dr. Dino when all of a sudden he realized after talking to me all this time he was still in love with his ex-girlfriend! We had been talking a while about why him and I was single and how are last relationships ended. I guess I made him realize what he did wrong and that it was his fault for their breakup. To my surprise I was shocked when he said he wanted to get back with his old girlfriend, because we have a date Friday and I want SUSHI. Can’t it wait for two days before you’re decision? Geez that is so typical of my dating life always making it right with the ex. I sit here this morning I looking for a man to take me to dinner or lunch Friday. I am 5’’10’ tall HUH! slim, very long dark hair, etc. Must I go on….Any volunteers? After talking to Dr. Dino I made him realize that he was a jerk to his last girlfriend and that it was his fault for there breakup.
He should take me out Friday because he owes me for the advice given. Hell, I just wanted a date for Friday night and dinner too.

Tell me more...

Hey, Guess I should post something since I haven’t in a few days. I have had a roller coaster of a week so far and I am not lying. First off Monday was a disaster I was big time hung over. I had too many shots and drinks the night before. Thinking about going to work only made it worse. After trying every excuse in the book I could not get out of going. So, if I didn’t want to lose my job I would have to go in. So after numerous attempts at finding my uniform and putting my hair back I laid back down on the bed. I was going to work even if I looked like shit. So I reached work, lucky for me the boss was real generous to let me go back home. I was feeling like I was run over by a semi and went straight back to bed on Forth of July. I had no party left in me and I didn’t care. If I learned a lesson from all this is that I will never drink later night if I have to work the next day!
Does anybody have a better drunken story to share?
What did you do Fourth of July?

A joker

An Eskimo had been waiting for his girlfriend in front of a movie theatre for a long time and it was getting colder and colder. After a while, shivering with cold and rather infuriated he opened his coat and drew out a thermometer. He then said loudly, “If she is not here at 15, I’m going!”.

Let Life Live!

Why is the world so cruel? I mean if you want a pet to die let it die of old age right? I wonder sometimes if we are death monsters, always looking to kill something. Had a table at work 2 days ago, who worked at an animal hospital, they had there uniform on that is a giveaway. I asked one of the men what was the most disgusting thing he saw while working there. He didn’t hesitate to say that one day he was snooping around and found a plastic bag placed in a large chamber. He said that was pretty bad to see. If there is anyway that I can save a pet from that I do. I can say that all my pets I have ever had in the past and now I have saved from the shelter. At least that is one less pet to put to sleep.

Quote it!

*** Quote of the Day
Perfect love is rare indeed - for to be a lovër will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain. – Leo Buscaglia, 1924-1998, American Author and Expert on Love and Human Relationships

Madness

This weekend is total CRAZINESS!!! Why do these idiot neighbors have to shoot their bottlerockets at my head? They should have enough sense to know I will come over there and beat down their head! I once saw a dog swollow a firework in it's mouth, it lived. Fourth of July to most are to go out get drunk and be a FOOL. What kind of independence are you after?

FROM DAWN TO DUST

The day begins all around the earth every other second round AND ROUND IT SPINS.I AM HAPPY TO SEE PEOPLE TAKING THE DAY AND MAKING IT CONSTRUCTIVE. Why not live??? So, get up and catch the worm first.

Happy Go Lucky

Today is my first blog, still trying to figure this out!!! Any suggestions?